love is grand.......

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11.28.2007

its been like eternity

Yeh i forgot i even had this journal area. But hell that doesn't surprise me one bit these days. ALOT has happened since my last post, hell i don't even know where to begin with it. lol

I tried and tried my little heart out to give Lynsey the sibling she so deserves. With the help of clomid i did concieve only to miscarry at 6 weeks. It was so sad, I feel I let them down in so many ways. Why cant my body cooperate when i need it too? damn it!

Several months after the miscarriage, and yes dear hearts i was on BCP to keep those nasty mean cyst away......I became pregnant with my own child.

I was so sick for about 2-3 weeks, when i broke down and went to see my doctor, yeh i know i should had went sooner. She mentioned a pregnancy test, i was like ok but your wasting your time, i'm on BCPs. That afternoon she calls to confirm her suspicions, i was pregnant! OMG! I was shocked to say the least. So i did a home test (lol) and yes there was a positive line, light but there. I did 3 more in the next week before i told my hubby.

I am now almost 17 weeks and i couldnt be happier. It did take a while to sink in. I was more afraid of hurting my PIPs than anything! They seem to be happy for me, but i know it still hurts. Thats so understandable.

i will hav to write more later, phone rings...haha

Posted on 11.28.2007 at 2:36 PM | Comments (0) | Permanent Link

11.8.2006

Whoa!

i totally need to update this journal! wow i didnt realized it been so long. hell where do i even begin....LOL nothing truely really happened........yeh i have a boring small town life.

on the surrogacy homefront, we are on hold until January. We had another cyst scare.....so we just mutually decided to let my body rest and relax over the holidays, and start fresh in January! Also we will only try until March. Which is very understandable for my IPs to want to stop. If it is meant to be it will happen before March! fingers and toes crossed for them plz! but we all kow we are blessed to have lynsey in our lives :-)

gosh its almost thanksgiving, which mean i will gain pounds LOL oh well! and then christmas, which mean i will be broke for awhile *rotfl*

later

Posted on 11.8.2006 at 1:05 PM | Comments (0) | Permanent Link

8.11.2006

oh lordy, its been for ever since i posted anything about anything!

well first with the surrogacy front....AF should up early last cycle, which is a total bitch! she is never early! ok so we regrouped, and i started 150mg clomid from day 3-7 this time. and i go have a sono Monday to see how many lil eggies i have. plz say alil pray from us!!

we got shaelyn 2 drawf hamsters today, they are so friggen cute!! she loves them...we also got them a beta fish...its cute, for a fish (ewe)

ummmm, OH yeh Shaelyn started tumbling/dance class last week...she will go ever Wednesday.

Posted on 8.11.2006 at 1:35 PM | Comments (0) | Permanent Link

7.12.2006

Gosh

i hate my husband, not really but i am ticked at him again! sometimes i wonder if it would be better if we split. maybe its me and these hormones, maybe i wouldnt want to be around me either if i was him. i feel fat, i feel stupid, and i feel ugly today...nothing more to say!

Posted on 7.12.2006 at 9:37 PM | Comments (0) | Permanent Link

7.8.2006

update

Hello, good morning readers, i know i have been slacking, and for that i am sorry! i think it is summer!! lots of things to do when it so nice outdoors.

well for starters, my cyst resolved itself!! thank you God! but i did have to have a polyp removed and OMG dod it hurt!!! it was sent to pathology, so far i havent heard anything yet, its been a week. just makes me even more nervous. Dr S. told me not to worry.....so i am not goin to lol

Jess is still in Virginia, but will be home in a week or so. School is approaching, and i myself will be going back too! WAYYY!! so many stupid rules for school this year regarding the dress codes, hell it would had been easier on us parents to just go to uniforms!!

i started 100 mg clomid on july 5th! can you say hormonal! LOL poor hubby better watch the hell out! (hehe) it will be all worth it for my IPs in the long run though.....so what ever works, is what i say.

My cousin Jeff, his wife gave birth July 5th to a healthy, beautiful boy! he is just so darn cute!! to bad tho he looks like Jeff (LOL sorry had to say it jeff.) he still is cute! he weighed 6 lbs 11oz and 19 inches.

went to the eye doc, i need new glasses, DUH i knew that already...i had the same lenses since Jan. 2003 and i knew somehting had to change, just my luck!! why are they sooooooo expensive any how? they are made of NOTHING! damn money hungry ppl.

ok nothing more to say about that...

Happy anny to my mom and dad on July 5th (same day as mine) they would had been married 36 yrs! or are they still? dad never remarried........hmmmmmmmmmm

Posted on 7.8.2006 at 10:37 AM | Comments (0) | Permanent Link

7.3.2006

this is how dumb i am.....lol

Insert obligatory potatoe reference here

How Dumb Are You?
A Rum and Monkey stupidity.

Posted on 7.3.2006 at 11:53 PM | Comments (0) | Permanent Link

what kind of drunk am i..?

What Kind of Drunk Are You?
Brought to you by Rum and Monkey

Posted on 7.3.2006 at 11:43 PM | Comments (0) | Permanent Link